Rough Pregnancies

While I've always had a respect and appreciation for women and what we go through as a whole before pregnancy, at this point I just have a deeper and ever better appreciation - an understanding I certainly didn't have before for what the woman goes through.


Women go through so much more than I ever realized, and Jameson sure made me aware of it. We face gender inequalities, all the while housing the very lives that will live through our legacies and face the futures of this world...and not to mention do much of the raising of our children. Some of us decide to continue with our careers and our jobs... juggling every aspect of our lives and the lives of our loved ones. Not to mention our body undergoes a metamorphosis that eventually leaves the youth of our pasts behind.

I can tell you I wasn't as blessed as many women of my age to have such a fertile body. About two years ago my polycystic ovarian syndrome took a good hold of me, and while I've always had issues with my reproductive system, I had never experienced a episode like the one I had then. No gritty details... all I remember was that it hurt and it also pained me when they mentioned I would have a harder time having kids and that my chances of pregnancy if I were to wait later on into my thirties would result in possibly miscarriage or no chances at all. Family means everything to us, and certainly starting one of our own was "part of the plan".

J and I were at a point in our lives that we wholesomely agreed we'd be together no matter what, so when I came home one day crying from the news we decided we'd just give it a try and see if anything happens. 8 months plus hormones with (a lot of fun, ha) and frustration happened but nothing else came into fruition. We decided to hold off and do what every late 20 year old couple would and just travel the world...and 4 months after that decision Jameson decided to pop up! Let's just say I had to resell some of the tickets to events we invested in lol.

My pregnancy all in all has NOT been easy. It's been so complicated but it's all been worth it. Needless to say, I haven't enjoyed my pregnancy, but I accept that! Jameson to me is already such a miracle baby. Despite being admitted to the hospital on multiple occasions especially during my first and second trimesters, he's really withstood everything. I sometimes feel like my mind goes crazy with everything that is going on with my career and being pregnant and also being ridiculously hormonal, but he's in there holding strong for me and it gives me confidence that everything is going to be alright.

Sometimes I look back and wish I was given more time to do some of the things other young professionals are doing at this moment - traveling the world and experiencing novel things. But I still wouldn't trade this chance! We'll just have to travel together as a family, and I wouldn't mind that! Our parents were able to do the same - travel, save, advance their careers while having a family.. and I don't think it'll be different for us. It'll be a challenge, but if you guys know me and J we love challenges. We are two spiritually moved souls and we feel like we have so much to offer to the world.

I'm nearing the end and close to term and we're beyond excited to be with him. I can't wait to hold him in my arms and be smitten by him. How can one love this much? Not everything in the world is going right, but when I think about Jameson, everything just blows away, my pregnancy troubles invisible, and my love so strong.

Love,

Jacq