Thought-ings and other stuffs.

pic stitchin'. the pics on the right are fails lol, but we tried.

 I'm back home in Houston and I am at peace here. Let's face it, there's just nothing better than your parents cooking (especially if one of them is particularly "culinary fluent") and the comfort of your home. Today I just wanted to write... (random pics included!!)

Because it's the end of the year, I've been going through some nostalgia, and unfortunately not all of it has been particularly pleasant. I went through so much last semester. In fact this year alone it's been an all emotional roller coaster journey. Good riddance, I'm quite glad it's almost all over. I feel like I went through it all -- heartbreak, physical sickness (anybody had anemia and polycystic ovary syndrome, anyone?), disappointment, low self esteem, hardest academic semester, and loss. I've literally been broken down into pieces mentally and physically, and there were so many moments of doubt. But I see myself in the mirror and I think "you made it out alive, you came out wiser, and it'll only get better from here."

And of course, at the end of the day, one can and should count their blessings. After all I've been through, I think that just pushing through, sticking it out, and fighting the good fight will help you come out triumphant.

I am so loved by God, and His grace has truly provided me the ability to pursue and hold strongly with what my heart desires. And now today, I am loved by a man I've truly invested my love in since day one, all because of God's love for the both of us. It has been such a bumpy journey for the both of us, and by gosh we made so many mistakes together. But like the cliche and the obvious parables of advice: patience, prayer, and understanding has really helped mature us and realize our faults. For that I am grateful.

Fighting for a better world... in the name of Pacqiuao lol

Fall semester 2012 was a complete storm. Almost indescribable, so many emotions and thoughts are incited and yet it leaves you quite speechless. That's how horrible it was. It wasn't just the material, but also the lack of time, and the enormous amount of expectations to be met. But I came out well from it, learned more than a million things within 3.5 months, and it made me love physical therapy even more. During this time I was also battling anemia and polycystic ovarian symptoms, and this trial made me more aware of the perception of pain and what it can do to us mentally and spiritually.

Two particular people who have helped me tremendously is Rynel aka Mystery Man, and Kate aka my sister. They were there for me when I really needed them, when I was too sick to stand up, or when I needed more encouragement to keep going, and when I couldn't confide in other people; they are my best friends. My sickness and challenges really help me grow closer to them in a way unimaginable before.

Kate and Penny. Poor Penny :( I also did Kate's makeup on this picture. It's very K-Pop.

I do feel somewhat different. I guess age may be a factor too. Or the startling reality that I'll be out of school soon, practicing a profession I am in love with, and wanting to start a new chapter -- complete with a new family -- in my life. OHEMGEE! How scary/exciting! But I am happy to say, that this new year I have a new perception. I know now how to set my goals, I know now my expectations vs. other's expectations, I know now better. Just better. I am not made to be perfect, but I am made to go through a journey interwoven with other people's journeys. I am made for Him. I will love, I will pray, and I will forgive.

Preview of my next OOTD!

I will view the world with eyes that will enhance the positivity and subdue the negative. I won't compare my relationships with my loved ones with other people's relationships. I will build from my experiences, and just be happy. Happy that today and tomorrow, and after that, God will be able to get me through any obstacle.

Love,

Jacquis